'A part of me was crying for freedom': The people
embracing their stutter
By Krupa Padhy, BBC
Eighty million people around the world have a natural
stammer. Krupa Padhy speaks to those who've decided
to embrace it – and discovers surprising benefits.
It was the summer of 2011 and Joshua St Pierre was
working in Edmonton, Canada. He was mid-conversation when he realised the other person wasn't listening.
It was a moment that changed his life.
St Pierre has a stammer, and until then, had always focused on trying to speak as fluently as he could, to make
it more comfortable for others to listen to him. But now,
he began to wonder if it was fair for him to be the one
doing all the work – and what a more balanced effort
might feel like.
"I I I, like most people, spent most of my l lifetime desperately trying to come up to a standard of nooormalcy,"
says St Pierre, who has asked that his quotes in this article include the words he stammers on. "I was doing a
whole lot to try and make other people feel comfortable
when it really actually wasn't much about communication itself."
An estimated 80 million people around the world speak
with a stammer (also known as a stutter in many countries), meaning, they know what they wish to say, but
have difficulty saying the words. Their speech is disrupted by repetitions, pauses or stops. There is still no
clear explanation of what exactly causes stammering,
but research suggests that the region of the brain responsible for planning and executing our speech functions
differently in those with a stammer.
Many children – between 60-80% – who have a stutter
will recover spontaneously. But contrary to popular belief, there isn't a permanent fix to overcoming a stammer. Whilst treatment and support are available (such as
speech language therapy), a high number of people with stammers may relapse after completing therapy. It can
be a life-long effort to suppress a stammer, something
US President Joe Biden has spoken about openly.
As St Pierre notes, however, the physical impact is only
one aspect of the condition. Another is social and may
be more about how stammering is perceived in the mind
of the listener. Studies suggest, for example, that people
who stammer openly may be considered anxious, nervous or embarrassing, purely because of that speech pattern. In a paper inspired by his conversation in Edmonton, St Pierre, who is now a researcher in critical disability studies at the University of Alberta, Canada, argues that this social perception of stammering as "broken speech" is not really about the stammer itself. It's
about the listener's "cultural norms of efficiency, pace,
and self-mastery", and their expectations of what successful communication should be like: succinct and fluent.
"It's not the fact that having d d d dysfluent speech that
causes the breakdown,” argues St Pierre. "It's the way
in which these forms of speech aren't able to be taken
up within the world and heard urm as speech. That's a
really cruel thing, and that's a political thing."
St Pierre and others, including some speech therapists,
are suggesting an alternative view of stammering: not as
a deficiency, but as a way of speaking that is no better
or worse than any others.
In fact, stammering openly can have many benefits,
says Courtney Byrd, a professor of speech, language
and hearing sciences at the University of Texas at Austin, US. She and her team have been working on a model
of treatment that encourages people to stammer with
confidence, even if others around them see it as a deficiency.
"We encourage stuttering openly for effective communication, because when you are avoiding it, you are essentially stifling your own intellect," says Byrd. "I'm
going to say [to people who stutter]: you can be the most
effective communicator and still openly stutter. And I'm
going to show you the path to that. And I also want you
to know that no matter where you live, you are going to
encounter highly educated people who are completely
ignorant about stuttering, and because they are ignorant
they are going to treat you ignorantly. They are going to
say things that will hurt, and they'll say things to you out
of trying to help you."
Speaking to people with a stammer from different countries and cultures, it is striking how similar some of their
experiences are – both in terms of the pain they suffered
through due to the prejudices of those around them, but
also, the relief of no longer hiding it.
Jia Bin was born in a small village in Sichuan province
in southwest China. Her parents were poor, and she felt
she was adding to their burden when she began to stammer as a child.
"It came to a point where I hated myself," she says.
"There were two forces in me – one was to communicate, the other was not to speak. I feel like I compromised a lot of my authenticity."
Bin chose to leave China, and move to the US, partly
because she feared her stutter would never be fully accepted at home. "I was holding down a job, I was married, I gave birth to my daughter before coming to
America at 32. I completed what society wants a normal
Chinese girl to do, but I was so miserable. There was a
part of me crying for freedom. I'd never seen a successful person who stutters in China."
Bin now runs a stammer support group on the Chinese
social media platform WeChat, and is studying for a
PhD in communicative sciences and disorders at Michigan State University. She no longer hides her stutter,
and finds this freeing, but her family still struggles to
accept it. Upon a recent trip to China, she decided to
stammer openly for the first time at a family gathering.
Older relatives gossiped and the children laughed at her.
"If you were able to hide it for 30 years, why don't you
continue to hide it for another 30 years?" asked her
mother.
Classifying stammering as a disability is a divisive subject, because as St Pierre puts it, "the power of ableism
is so strong" – meaning, some people with a stammer
may not wish to identify as disabled.
Former Ernst and Young partner Iain Wilkie spent 40
years of his life feeling ashamed of his stammer. He first
started stammering at the age of seven and was bullied
for it by other children. But in 2022, he gave a TED talk
in London in which he described stuttering as a gift: "I'd
like to start by telling you that I stutter and I'm ok with
that," he began. "It took me 35 years to be ok with that.
And I hope it's ok with you."
Wilkie, who heads the charity 50 Million Voices, which
offers support to people with a stammer in the workplace, believes those who stammer are a huge pool of
under-used talent.
"It's rubbish to think people who stutter can't communicate well," he says. On the contrary, he is convinced that
people who stammer are very good with words. "There's
great presence, we give each other time, it's like a slow
down and we just wait for those words to arrive," says Wilkie, referring to meetings with colleagues who stammer. "This is the team that listens best. When the stuttered word arrives, it comes with a power and weight."
Ronan Miller has studied the relationship between stammering and language-learning for his PhD at the University of Valencia, in Spain. It's something he has firsthand experience of. As a young adult, he moved from
Britain to Spain, to leave behind the stress he had experienced when stammering in English. Now, even though
he stammers more in Spanish than in English, he finds
freedom in speaking another language.
Miller also finds that people who stammer have a different relationship with language than fluent speakers.
"Many of us are used to being quite nimble linguistically as a way of navigating a fluency-centric world, for
example by varying syntax or using synonyms to reduce
the impact of stammering," he says. "However, I think
that for this to happen the needs of students who stammer need to be understood and recognised in the classroom."
As one research paper notes, people with a stammer still
face social rejection from childhood through adulthood,
with studies documenting wide-ranging discrimination
including worse job prospects and lower earnings. As St
Pierre points out in his paper on how cultural norms
shape ideas of "broken speech", we as a society also
have an important part to play in normalising voices that
don't sound like our own, for example, by focusing on
the speaker's message and intention, not how fluent they
are. There is much more to language than just words.
St Pierre has found his own liberation in not just accepting but enjoying his way of communicating. "I now
speak thinking about my own pleasure that I find in
speaking as opposed to the the displeasure that my l l
listeners are going to receive," he says. "So so that's way
more important."
(Adapted from https://www.bbc.com/news)
Which of the following sentences from the text contains an active voice construction?